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//xiuf

Tuesday, February 03, 2004
I'm a complete and absolute idiot. How could I do such a stupid thing? I don't think of the consequences before I do anything. I don't stop and think before jumping off a clifff into the stormy sea below, "What'll happen if I launch myself off this hard, solid rock? Will I land up cracking my skull because the sea below is actually an illusion? Will I get swept off in the strong currents and land up drowning? Or will the sea serve as a cushion to my fall, saving me from killing myself?"

I laughed at them in their faces when they suggested such a thing to me. I thought that I'd never be idiotic enough, never be weak enough, never be like the rest of them all. Yet here I am, the worst off among the entire lot.

I've fallen deeper than anyone else.
I'm too lost to find my way out.
I can't leave anymore.
I'm not sure I even want to.

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I'm here just like I said
Though it's breaking every rule I've ever made
My racing heart is just the same
Why make it strong to break it once again?
And I'd love to say I do
Give everything to you
But I can never now be true
So I say...

I think I'd better leave right now
Before I fall any deeper
I think I'd better leave right now
Feeling weaker and weaker
Somebody better show me how
Before I fall any deeper
I think I'd better leave right now

heard those magic reindeer click @ 3:50 PM