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Friday, April 30, 2004
Another Friday with the prospect of a lazy weekend ahead. Yay. School today wasn't too bad. Like, it wasn't fantastically wonderful, but it wasn't as downright depressing as the past few days had been. I'm probably moving upwards on my yo-yo of emotions. How exciting. I never knew how a simple "hi" and a smile could brighten up my day so much. Thankyou. Was people-watching again today, like I usually do when I'm out with Trina on Friday nights. Sight is such a blessing, yet it's a curse at the same time. Sometimes, I'm better off not having seen anything... anyone. Yet other times, I don't think I could have survived the day without seeing. Strange.
Felt like utter crap yesterday. Bought fruit during recess. Why did you have to decide to buy fruits too and stand beside me in line? It was sheer torture. I could only stare straight ahead or turn the other way. I just couldn't bring myself to even face you. By lunch time, I was completely drowned in my own misery. Yes, self-pity is horrible. I know. Skipped Chinese, felt like I simply couldn't go on anymore, then decided to take out a pink slip and go home. Crawled into bed with a million and one things on my mind, but sleep washed over me. I like sleeping. It makes me forget everything. Woke up, had an interesting SMS conversation about all sorts of random things, felt much much better, and my good mood carried over to today. And I'm still fairly happy. Whee.
Smile at me. Tentative. I say hello. Unsure. I look at you. Wondering. Your eyes flicker to my face. Aversion? Bleah. Anyhow. I've got a ton of work to do this weekend. And I may even get a new phone, if all goes well. From today onwards, I will be happy. My sadness will be banished to the deepest and darkest reccesses of my heart. Smile. :)
Oh, did you know that daisies mean innocence and pure love? I didn't know that until yesterday. I like daisies. But I don't think people give them to me for that meaning. I always thought people gave daisies just 'cause they're fairly cheap and won't die so easily. And oh, also 'cause daisies are so so cute. Oh well. Maybe daisies DO signify the above for some girls.
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