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//xiuf

Thursday, April 08, 2004
Another one of those days when I walked through the entire day in a sleep-like stupor. Had mass PE today. Or kind of mass PE, anyways. They've split us up into classes for mass PE... YAY! Then at least when I lag right behind while doing rounds, the teachers can't scream at me halfway across the field to quit running like an auntie along East Coast Park. Less embarassment comes at a price, though. More personalised attention. Got myself into having to run an extra round today 'cause I simply had to dash off to the toilets halfway through my second round. Argh.

So what if I seem to be laughing half the time while in school? I can't believe that I'm that good at keeping up my facade - am quite proud of myself, actually. So what if I smile and laugh? When in actual fact, it's merely a front I put up to face the world - all I feel like doing is to run away and never have to face anyone ever again. Never have to face... them... him... again. Sighs. I am an idiot, aren't I? I do the stupidest things in the world. How long has this been going on for? For how long has everyone known except me? The last one to know... The only one to feel.

I feel completely and totally misunderstood. Why can't I be given a chance... To explain myself, to tell my side of the story? Why won't you listen to me, hear what I gotta say instead of listening to everyone else?

This week has been horrible to the core. I'm gonna bury myself in work this weekend. Hopefully, everything will blow over by Monday.

heard those magic reindeer click @ 9:18 PM