santa won't you bring me the one i really need?

kelly / acjc / 1aa1 / drama / ex-ijtp / catholic / ihm / cold_image@hotmail / 158/159/160cm / smiles: pink . watching football . f1 . her ps2 . singing . music . reading . the rain . sleeping . her friends . her family . chocolate . pizza . butter crabs . singapore idol/ scowls: PE . chinese language . homework . being ignored . uncertainty . incapability . the feeling of complete helplessness . waking up early

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Monday, April 12, 2004
I have done the deed. I have fought the fight. I have done all I could. So I shall quit mulling over it. And get on with my life. Kelly is strong. She will not cry. I will not cry over someone who couldn't care less if I lived or died. Oh, help. I don't think I can face the world right now. I can't go on hiding forever. I'll have to stop looking down at people's shoes sooner or later. But when will I be ready to look at him in the eye again? Tomorrow? Next week? Next year? Oh, I don't know. I don't know anything anymore. It's scary. No one should dictate how I live my life.

Bleah. I am so extremely annoyed. At myself, for being such an ass. At the world, for not even trying to understand. At someone too, for not even caring. Especially with myself. I am such an idiot.

heard those magic reindeer click @ 8:17 PM