santa won't you bring me the one i really need?

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Sunday, April 18, 2004
I'm going completely mad. I do the most IDIOTIC things in the world, then crawl into bed feeling miserable at night. I can't believe myself. I bring misery onto myself. What the hell's wrong with me??? I'm a total and complete idiot. And I'm not the only one who thinks so. Argh. I so need to scream or cry or just freaking get out of the school. Or I swear I'll just go completely and absolutely berserk in my relentless thoughts. Thoughts that haunt me even as I close my eyes to escape from them all. Thoughts that prey on my mind every single minute of my lame life. Have you ever heard of anyone drowning in their thoughts? Well, hello. Pleased to meet you. I could just drown and die in my own head.

heard those magic reindeer click @ 3:45 PM