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Tuesday, April 20, 2004
Plans A, B, C and D were hatched during econs double lecture - which, under normal circumstances, always land up being major bore fests. Cheryl and I came up with some retarded plans and made me laugh myself silly. Miraculously, I stayed awake for the full 1 hour 20 minutes of Lecture Guaranteed to Put Even Insomniacs to Sleep.
Nobody would understand what I'm saying, but Cheryl, if you're reading this, here's a reminder!!
Plan A - Throw file or anything heavy onto the wall. Make a lot of certain noise. Stick head out of window. Good if we have a camera (that can record voices too) on hand.
Plan B - Leave lots and lots of sweets around in class. Make sure some people come by.
Plan C - Simple. Just bump into someone and say "Pardon me?" Wait for lecture on how to walk straight to begin.
Plan D - Cart books out of AA1 and into some other classroom. Make sure books have words written inside the front cover.
Heh. If only all plans actually worked. We'd all be much happier people. If only our lives could be like those weepy Chinese 7-or-9-o'clock shows - something good happens after a bad thing does. Scripted dramas are always so predictable, but aren't happy endings much nicer? Girl likes Guy A. Guy B likes Girl. Girl knows and does not like Guy B. Girl likes Guy A but he does not like her. Guy B is nice to Girl. Girl realises that Guy B is the Absolute Love of Her Life and decides that she likes him, but by this time, it's too late - Guy B has given up. Just when Girl decides that she likes Guy B and gives up on Guy A, Guy A realises that Girl has been The Girl He Has Been Waiting For All His Life, but it's too late, she's given up on the bastard. I don't know how it'll end, but all startings are more or less the same.
I'm feeling down again today. I'm trying hard to smile and talk to mask my depression. Think it's working. And it's good. After all, I don't want to be known as The Girl Who's Always Depressed in school. Smiling and laughing takes my mind off certain things. It works, up to a certain point. Thoughts I've been trying to supress leap out at me when I least expect it and nearly drowns me in a sudden wave of deep despair. Gnawing, persistent. Trying so hard to shake it off, but it won't leave. A sudden glimpse, I think I'm going mad. Just a flash, and it's gone. Sighs. I cannot go on like that. I really can't. Or I may just decide to do something really stupid one day.
I love math. Math is The Love of My Life. I just need to psycho myself into liking math. I've still got to do a written assignment for geog. Then I've got to start on my math. Test is on Thursday. I WILL not fail. Ha.
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