|
Thursday, March 25, 2004
A
A raging storm, a tuft of cloud
A clear night sky, a lone star's light
A girl alone, a simple wish made
A selfless wish, a wish that's true
A month passes, a figure alone
A teardrop falls, a grief-filled face
A precious life lost, a child in tears
A sad sad star, a mother gone
A heavy heart, a hope put out
A life continues, a story ensues
A birthday comes, a battle half won
A beautiful child born, a smiling face
A caring mother, a heart at peace
A cycle ending, a new one beginning
A process never-ending, a heart-rending thing
A bittersweet memory, a joyful one
A thing we know, a thing we all have
A precious thing indeed, a gift called life
heard
those magic reindeer click @
7:28 PM
One more week 'til the Midsummer's performance, then I'm scot-free! Yayness! Argh. Ticketing's gonna kill me eventually. Recesses and lunches have been sacrificed numerous times to rush up some ticketing stuff or the other. One more week! I will survive. My stomach will survive!
Went for some NE quiz thing today. It was all the way at the Discovery Centre (which was in Jurong)! What a coincidence - I saw Khin there! Haha... The quizmaster person thought that she was very amusing and said such stupid things that all I could do was to sit and shake my head. She commented that the since the TJ people were seated one row above some NYJ students, it looked like a tree to her (as the TJ uniform is a tree-like shade of green and the NYJ uniform is some murky brown colour). Was it even slightly funny? No. But she seemed to think so. Heh. Went home with Khin and Sarah by MRT. When was the last time I went home all by myself without having dad pick me up from Yio Chu Kang station? It seems such a long time ago.
Today was a... weird day. Sighs. I'm lost. I don't know what to say or what to feel anymore.
4th of April couldn't come any quicker.
heard
those magic reindeer click @
7:14 PM
Wednesday, March 24, 2004
Can't believe that I've gotta do it this way, but here goes anyways! - I've added a link where you can add comments if you want to. Chances are that you won't be able to see it ('cause I wasn't). So, to comment, just move your mouse over to the space after the time (which is in white). Your pointer should change to a hand or something of the sort, then just click and a window will pop up! Heh. This is really pathetic, but I'm still tinkering around with the colour coding. HTML hates me.
heard
those magic reindeer click @
7:45 PM
*Greatest Story Ever Told//Oliver James
Oh my god. Math is tough. I never expected a cake-walk, but math is TOUGH man!! Argh. Went for make-up lecture today after school and didn't understand a word of what the lecturer was saying. He went so damn quickly that even before my brain could absorb whatever he said, he'd moved on. I'm lost in the world of partial fractions. Even binomial expansions seem alien to me now, even though I'd done it a million times last year. Oh no oh no. Was making the decision to take up math in place of history too hasty? Argh. What if I'm making a horrible mistake? I complained so much about math and all its evils last year (ie. involuntary slavery to my math ten-year-series)... What the heck am I doing taking it again? Heh. I amuse myself all the time.
heard
those magic reindeer click @
6:42 PM
Tuesday, March 23, 2004
I'm gonna bathe now. Realised I totally wasted the entire day watching mindless TV and napping (which isn't exactly a wasted activity, but that's beside the point). Sighs. Lectures today were mostly (a) introductory or (b) repeated material. School ended early today! *joy!- Was home free by 11.50am. Heh. Relished the feeling of stepping out of the school gates before 4.30pm... My school hours this week will grow longer as each day passes. Argh. By Friday, I'll be finishing at 4.30pm.
But no PE this week! *ecstasy!- That means 18 more PE lessons to endure before June comes along and brings with it the reprieve from stupid stupid PE.
Oh yeah. Leeds won last night!!! Ha. Ha. Watched the repeat telecast when I came back home today. They played badly. They're so lucky to have won. Seriously. But they won anyways! And I'm not complaining. Heh. Leeds WON!!! Haha... I'll say this again. LEEDS WON!!! There.
heard
those magic reindeer click @
9:47 PM
Monday, March 22, 2004
First day back in school today. Day got off to a bad start 'cause for some strange reason, I went down for breakfast late despite getting up at 5.45am (15 minutes earlier than usual). It's happening every morning. I get up, brush my teeth and look at my bleary-eyed reflection staring back at me from the bathroom mirror, stumble out of the bathroom and look up at the clock - and it always reads 6.00am. Then I think to myself that there's still plenty of time, so there's no big hurry! Bleah. By the time I've finished putting on my uniform, tying up my hair and putting on my contacts, it almost always is about 6.30am. 10 minutes off the supposed 6.20am breakfast. Double bleah. Mom and dad wouldn't stop going on and on about the possibility of kicking me out of bed by 5.30am if it was the only way to make sure I go down on time. Heavens, no! 15 minutes more sleep is 15 minutes too precious. New resolution: Quit lurking around in a semi sleep-like state when I get up in the mornings, and go down for breakfast on time
Had to appeal to take 4 subjects today during subject registration. It reminded me very much of the December of approximately 2 years ago, when I had to look Miss Tan up to appeal into 3/1. Bad memory, that. Told myself I never wanted to put myself through the agony of having to appeal for anything ever again then... But look at me now. Still having to appeal, still having to pay the price for laziness and not wanting to work hard enough. I don't seem to have changed at all, yet I feel like I've changed completely. It's a weird feeling, uncertainty of even being sure that I know myself. Argh. Well, it's time to put everything behind me and start all over again. Heh. I realise that I tell myself the same stories every year, but it doesn't seem to work. This time round will be different. It HAS to be different. Bleah. If I don't get the required passes for the term exams, I'll have to drop one subject. It's not like I'm planning to fail spectacularly or anything like that with 4 Fs, but some things you just have no control over. (ie. my results, which theoretically speaking, I should wield total control over, but for bizzare reasons, I don't.)
Kelly's First-Day-of-New-Term Resolutions:
#01 I love sleeping. Sleeping is good. So I shall sleep EARLY.
#02 I must remember that homework is GOOD. So maybe I should actually try finishing my homework once in a while?
#03 GO DOWN FOR BREAKFAST ON TIME!!!
#04 Talk less, think more.
#05 I need to know what to do!!! Argh. Sometimes, I leave school with the good intentions of catching up on my work at home, but the moment I traipse up the stairs and into my room... All the good resolutions are swept out of my mind at the sight of my nice, comfy bed. *loveliness-
heard
those magic reindeer click @
6:40 PM
Sunday, March 21, 2004
*Suteki Da Ne//Final Fantasy X OST (Rikki)
Oh, what a way to end the March holidays! - with blustery winds, rolling thunder, the dismal grey sky and all. And with Kimi Raikkonen blowing his engine at Sepang too. Heh. Am not looking forward to another 10 weeks of 5.45am wake-up calls, a grand total of 20 PE lessons (and with the dreaded PFT looming nearer and nearer over the horizon with the passing of each week), and 7.25am to 4.30pm days spent in school trying valiantly to stay awake in lectures and tutorials. Argh. And no more FFX until June!
Sighs. At least the F1 and EPL seasons still go on and I won't be made to stop watching when school resumes as per normal. But Raikkonen's engine blew today and thus, he retired in with 15 laps to go! Still feeling a little sore about not being able to hear him speak in his halting English during the post-race interviews. Heh.
I can't help but feel that today's the end of something. Well, besides the obvious fact that today is the last day of the fabulous March holidays. It's more than that. Maybe I'm just mentally preparing myself for a major change tomorrow, what with the class movements and all? And it's not only school. It's... so many other things in my life. Still. I didn't mean for this entry to be so somber and gloomy, so I shan't end on such a reflective note.
Sleep! I want to sleep! It's the end of my sleeping in 'til 11am every morning and waking to the smell of toasted bread or sizzling bacon on the pan. Yet, it's a hello to arising in the cool darkness of the early morning enveloping me, to the distinctive calls of those funny birds which I have sworn to identify one day. And yes, I still get to wake up to the smell of a delicious breakfast cooking. :)
heard
those magic reindeer click @
6:06 PM
Friday, March 19, 2004
Went with Khin to see the Body Worlds exhibit at Singapore Expo today. It was pretty gross at first, seeing all the human body parts that my skin shields from prying eyes. That's precisely why I'm not in the Science stream this year - I can't bring myself to do my bio practicals which will involve dissections of animals, and because I won't do bio, I won't have enough subjects. It was interesting enough, but I realised that the exhibits started to look the same after about half an hour of walking. Left the place and headed for Orchard. I was so damn hungry, for some odd reason! Ate non-stop once we got to Orchard, and left later feeling awful. Sighs. Another day, gone like that. It was well-spent, though! Haven't seen Khin in ages... It was great just being able to talk to her in person again. Will have to resolve to do more of that since she's gonna be leaving for New Mexico soon - and most definitely by the end of this year.
Have been doing my scholarship research ever since I got home. My resolve to win one deservedly has increased ever since talking to her today. It always increases markedly after conversations with Khin or Trina. I'm gonna have to get over my intense fear of being interviewed by a panel of people all waiting to judge me based on my answers. If I wanna get anything, go anywhere, I'm gonna have to present myself as someone who has brains in interviews. Right now, I spontaneously combust every interview. All the interviewer(s) has to do is to ask me one question. Then it's snap - goodbye to any bit of sense and intelligence that Kelly ever possessed. I can't go anywhere if I continue like that. What's wrong with me, anyways? I believe I sound decently intelligent in normal conversations with people (or I may be wrong, but I do know that I sound a thousand times better than in an interview, anyways). Why can't I be myself in an interview? It doesn't make sense.
I don't make sense to myself. Nevertheless, my endless search goes on. My never-ending barrage of self-berating goes on, and everything repeats itself. Still, it's gotta stop somewhere. Where?
heard
those magic reindeer click @
8:05 PM
Tuesday, March 16, 2004
*The Road to Mandalay//Robbie Williams
I wish it would be the holidays forever. And ever and ever. I've never been happier than I have been in the past 3 days. Lolled around in bed in Saturday and read like I've never read before. Then played a bit of FFX with Carol. Sunday came around, and went bowling with Trina at Singapore Island Country Club. My average score's improved significantly since the last time I went! Oh, and I've upgraded my bowling ball to an 8-pound(?) one. I used to have to search very hard for 6 balls every time I bowled, but 8s are very much easier to find! :) Played pool for the first time in my life too. Heh. Such a deprived life. Going to SICC made me think back to the times when I went to Orchid Country Club practically every fortnight to bowl, play in the arcade, swim, or just stand around the golfing area where my aunt would tee-off. Sighs. Those were fond memories, that. Then met Trina again yesterday to play some tennis. The court was slightly wet, and I whacked a ball out of the court into the icky wet drain outside. Oops.
Carol's gone for training. I was playing FFX just now until she left. Argh. Still wanna continue, but I'd best be doing some work now. I've got so much reading to catch up on - reading of the academic kind, NOT for leisure, mind you! Argh. Nevermind. I'll get some work done today and whenever I can so when I go out for dinner tonight and meet Khin on Friday (loveliness! I haven't seen that woman in such a long time!!), my conscience won't be nagging at me to go do some work. :) Heh.
I love the holidays!! Why can't I take a one-year break and just stay home and do nothing??
Oh yeah. As a parting note... Astronomers think/are almost certain that they've discovered the tenth planet in the solar system! How exciting! They've named their discovery Sedna, after the Inuit goddess of the sea or something like that. Isn't that a lovely name? :) I love stars. I love planets.
heard
those magic reindeer click @
11:55 AM
Sunday, March 14, 2004
*Toxic//Britney Spears
Lovely lovely holidays are here. The realisation that I'd be able to sleep in past 6am every morning for the next week just struck me. Whee.
Played FFX with Carol last night while switching back and froth from the Fulham-Leeds match (which Leeds lost 2-0, by the way)... Will play more when she comes back from her softball match today. :) I've started to read John Sloman's text. It isn't half as bad as I thought it'd be - it's much better than the econs notes I've been given. And I know what production is! It's the transformation of outputs into inputs by a firm to make profits (or for some other objective). Ha!
Am reading A Little Princess now... It's a children's book, but it's so poignant. It's beautiful. Sighs. Wish I could do this more often, just reading books 'cause I like to. I used to devour book after book as a kid... What the heck happened to my appetite?? Argh. I think it's not so much of my love for reading waning... It's more of the freaking lack of time!! What's new, huh? Heh.
I shall sleep now. I got kicked out of bed early this morning to attend the 7am service at SVDP (which, thankfully, is so near my house) thanks to darling little Carol who has a game. It's insane to get out of bed any earlier than 7am on a Sunday morning. So I shall go right back to bed and sleep until my stomach wakes me up for lunch.
heard
those magic reindeer click @
8:31 AM
Saturday, March 13, 2004
Oh no oh no. I'm dead. My handphone bill's made up about half of the total phone bill of all four of us in the family plus the home line. Mom's gonna flip. I'm in so much trouble that I don't even wanna think about it. Argh.
Kelly's To-Do List for the March Holidays 2004:
#01 Read and understand econs notes.
#02 Read John Sloman's econs text.
#03 Revise chinese words learnt since school started in January.
#04 Re-copy physical geograpy notes.
#05 Read and understand physical geog notes.
#06 Read and understand human geog notes.
#07 Write 2 GP essays.
#08 Some math.
#09 Read Othello.
#10 Read The Red Badge of Courage.
#11 Find out about the cost of UK education, course requirements and scholarships available.
#12 Clean up my table.
heard
those magic reindeer click @
3:45 PM
*Try//Nelly Furtado
All I know
Is everything is not as it's sold
But the more I grow the less I know
And I have lived so many lives
Though I'm not old
And the more I see, the less I grow
The fewer the seeds, the more I sow.
When I see you standing there
Wanting more from me
And all I can do is try
Then I see you standing there
Wanting more from me
All I can do is try
I wish I hadn't seen all of the realness
And all the real people are really not real at all
The more I learn the more I cry
As I say goodbye to the way of life
I thought I had designed for me
Then I see you standing there
Wanting more from me
And all I can do is try
Then I see you standing there
I'm all I'll ever be
But all I can do is try
Try
heard
those magic reindeer click @
3:04 PM
I've had enough of being a spectator in the arena of my own life. I'm sick of watching everything spiral out of control, sick of having to absorb certain events as they happen to me. I will take control of my own life, I have the ability to do better than how I've been living out my life thus far, and I will change things as of today. I have to.
Went out with Trina yesterday. It was another one of those Friday night wander-down-Orchard-and-who-the-heck-cares-about-the-rest-of-the-world sessions. Khin called me while we were walking into Giordano's and screamed that she got it. For a moment, I couldn't comprehend what the "it" was. It was the UWC scholarship! :) I was so so glad for her. I was kinda overwhelmed when she told me, so I probably sounded a little watered down or something. But I just didn't know what to say, to tell her how I was so happy for her, how I was so proud although I'm not her mother or anything. She's amazing, and she totally deserves the scholarship. I'm so glad that it went to her and not someone who probably doesn't deserve it half as much as she does. All I can say is that girl's gonna go to high places, and man will she soar. :D
Khin's announcement last night made me think about what I was doing to help myself in any way. I wasn't - that's the whole problem, and it was there and then when I was talking to Trina that I decided that I couldn't go on like this. I couldn't go on throwing away opportunities, wasting my time, not working hard enough when I still could. Hence the determination. My council interview was completely screwed up, but maybe that could have been a blessing in disguise? Since the chances of me making it through that interview are zilch, I won't have council to distract me from my work. I can't go on kidding myself, I know for a fact that I'll have to work slightly harder than everyone else just to stay on par with them. I do well in exams only through sheer hard work, not because I'm particularly smart. So if I'll have to mug to produce results, I will mug. I can't see any other way round this.
Trina and I promised each other that we'd work hard, get our scholarships and go to the UK together. She's started to act on her resolution - she's not running for council at Hwa Chong anymore. It's time I know what I have to do. It's time I do it.
heard
those magic reindeer click @
10:45 AM
Tuesday, March 09, 2004
*Cry//Kym Marsh
I'm so proud of myself. I actually did mass PE today. Ran 2 rounds for warm-ups, did 40 push-ups, 60 crunches, two-and-a-half minutes of step-ups, and ran another 2 rounds for cool-down. Apparently, that's supposed to be light PE... Seems like complete crap to me, but I guess that's just me. Still waiting for them (ie. the higher powers, ie. the teachers) to come to their senses and excuse me from PE for life. Until that happy day comes, I'll just do as little PE as I possibly can.
Dad reminded me again on the way home about the importance of prioritising and that studies are the single most important thing about JC life. Sighs. That's after I told him that my council interview was gonna be tomorrow, before the South Africa performance after that. Now he thinks that I'm gonna be too bogged down with stuff other than academic matters to really concentrate on my work. He was right about my sec 3 year, saying that I couldn't continue with both Guides and Prefects - I was much happier after quitting Guides. Then I got into the council, and there was another huge fuss. Mom even called Jo Teo up and started telling her how I wouldn't me able to cope with my schoolwork if she made me a councillor et cetra. Jo Teo spoke to me after talking to Mom and asked if I really wanted to be in the council. I eventually stayed on, but at that point in time, I was quite convinced that Mom and Dad could kick up a big enough ruckus to have me left out of the council even before doing anything official. Sighs. The interview's tomorrow... Am really quite frightened. Oh dear. I've never been good at interviews. Just look at what happened during my UWC interview.
Bleah. Don't wanna think about that. Something happened today that made me wonder at the volume at which I usually talk at. I was out of the classroom today after school talking to Mel and Laura on the phone 'cause I didn't want to sit inside and disturb the peace as everyone was inexplicably occupied with some form of work or the other. So, yes. I was outside talking and laughing, when I decided to go back to get something from my bag, and Kexian told me that talking outside was kinda pointless as what I said could be heard from inside anyways. Then Kim Boon stuck his head out and told me that I was talking really loudly. I was utterly and completely embarrassed. I really wished that the ground would open and swallow me up right there and then, I was so so embarrassed. Do I talk so loudly? Do I??? Argh. Anyways. Am finally getting round to downloading new songs. Doing everything to try to stall my having to do Chinese homework. Why did I fail my Higher Chinese so badly?? F9!! It's as good as not showing up for the stupid thing.
heard
those magic reindeer click @
7:12 PM
Monday, March 08, 2004
*Simple and Clean//Utada Hikaru
The sky was a ominous grey, with dark clouds hanging heavily overhead. A bolt of lightning flashed across, illuminating the darkened sky, and a loud peal of thunder followed shortly thereafter, the sound seeming to rattle the metal bars that held up the container classroom. Huge sheets of rain pelted down the window pane, each drop hitting the glass like a minature torpedo. The girl glanced out of the window and noted the rain washing everything on the glass down with it as it fell; all the dirt and grime, the leaves littering the pavement - everything was swept by the torrent of water that fell from the sky as it flowed into the drains and canals.
Yes, today was a wet wet day.
I got soaked to the bone, and feel as though I never want to get wet ever again in my entire life. The feeling of wearing wet shoes the entire day, of feeling the toes squish about with each other in the sloppy water in the shoes... Ick. It was truly traumatic. My books and papers and practically everything I carried with me today in my bag suffered a far worse fate than I did, though. At least I had a chance to dry out properly once in the comfort of my nice, dry home, but my poor possessions are still fairly damp from this afternoon's drenching. My papers and books are completely ruined (especially Othello, which has become so tattered and abused after all the pages had mysteriously received a splashing, and my Chinese book which doesn't even fairly resemble a book anymore owing to the pathetic state of the front and back covers). I spent an hour just now using Mom's hairdryer just now trying to save the new testpad that I bought last week plus the reams and reams of notes in my droplet-covered neon pink file. Sighs. All my papers look so... studied.
Went back to IJ today for Thanksgiving mass. Decided to return for what could be my last mass in IJ, and realised that I missed IJ masses so much. The hymns I used to sing and the hyms sung now are totally different. As I sung the hymns today during mass, I felt this odd sense of loss. I thought back to the hymns sung during Monday chapel and comparing them both, I rather much prefer the IJ ones. Maybe it's just a matter of being brought up singing those familiar songs that I love so much and having to sing something I haven't heard before in my entire life? Sighs.
I want to sleep now. The rain's still falling, and the rhythmitic pitter-patter of the raindrops falling on my tiled roof's so comforting. It's the sound that I have fallen asleep to after crying my heart out for some matter or the other many times in the past, the sound I fall asleep to with a heavy heart and tears falling down onto my pillow as I cry myself to sleep. Right now, I'm pretty much happy, but I still want to fall asleep to that sound - the sound that has brought me so much comfort in the past. Yawns. It's lovely, this sound, and is one of my favourite sounds in the world. I can't exactly express myself very well right now 'cause I'm about to rush off to finish my GP work so I can snuggle into bed with the comfortor pulled up to my chin. This is pure torture, not being able to sleep and having to toil. Argh.
heard
those magic reindeer click @
8:31 PM
Friday, March 05, 2004
*Stand//Jewel
I've dropped History!! Don't know why I'm suddenly so happy by the realization of that simple fact, but it sure is making me smile right now even as I type all this in. :) It's not that I hate the subject or anything of the sort; on the contrary, I found myself hating the material I usually would be very interested in reading, and I couldn't bear the thought of hating something that I once enjoyed. Reading what I once loved became a chore, and I thought to myself that this couldn't go on. So I dropped History, and am a very much happier girl now. In fact, I read my European History notes again the day I decided to drop it, and I found it very much more interesting than it was than when I was reading the same material for school work.
I suppose once my brain realised that I wasn't under pressure to read and remember facts any longer, I automatically began liking what I was doing. Again, I discover something new about human nature today. Whoop-de-doo.
Didn't do anything in school today at all. Absolutely nothing. Zip. Nada. A-Level results were released today, so you can imagine the fuss. After all, I got my own O-Level results back a mere one week ago, and can still remember all the teachers being hounded out of the safety of the staffroom to be talked to by enthusiastic/crying/furious/overjoyed students. Spent E8 lit and Econs tutorial watching Ian Chua, Kimboon and Shaun play football. At times, it seemed that they were gonna either a) flatten the poor ball, b) fall down and squash their noses, or c) severely injure each other by virtue of the slamming against the walls and cupboards, or the wild kicking of the ball. Or perhaprs even d) kill me by sending the darn ball flying straight into my face and maybe rearranging my features in the process. But nothing of the sort happened, only one or two incidents which served merely to embarrass one or more of the three took place. What a... fruitful way to spend the afternoon. Observing the boys in class kick the ball violently about. Made me appreciate the football I watch on TV every weekend after today. It's so much... safer. Yeah.
Am doing ticketing stuff again now. (What's new??) Doing the accounts for A Midsummer Night's Dream tickets and doing the tickets of ACJC Does South Africa - Tour Programme coming up this Wednesday(!!). Oh yeah. Might as well push ticket sales here. Buy tickets for A Midsummer Night's Dream, guys!! It's gonna be on the 2nd and 3rd of April (you choose one), 8pm, at ACS-Barker, and the best thing is: it's only $20!! :) I've been having nightmares about tickets recently. It's always me not being able to sell all the tickets I'm supposed to sell, and the auditorium being empty. What horror!
Sighs. Maybe immersing myself in this whirlwind of activities is actually better for me? It keeps me from thinking about life after the March holidays. About what may or may not happen. About which class I'll be in. About the people I'll miss. About the deep-running feeling of regret and the realization of "too liitle, too late" that hit me the moment I got home and thought about why I didn't get the results I'd been expected to get and hoped for. All right, so maybe no one expected me to perform a miracle and do any better than the 17 points that I got for my sec 4 mid-years. But I know for sure that at least one person expected more of me: Myself.
Went for the Cross-Country Nationals on Wednesday with the Student Council nominees and screamed my lungs out as I cheered for our school runners. Had fun, and got a nice sore-throat the day after. Oh yeah, and a nice sun burn too. I'm so brown now that it's disgusting. Argh. Ticketing took over my life on Tuesday, and I practically ate, breathed and dreamt ticketing this entire week. Maybe next week will be less hectic?
Maybe the school will finally excuse me from PE permanently next week. I'm still waiting for them to realise that I'm the unfittest person in the entire universe, and that I can't run to save my own life. I think I spend more time trying to think of ways and means to skip every Tuesday's mass PE than actually doing the actual PE. Which is fine with me, 'cause the less PE I do, the happier I am. And possibly healthier and more able to concentrate on my lessons too.
I realised one more thing, that the release of the O-Level results seemed to signify a turning point in my academic life. Since I got back my hugely unsatisfactory results, my mindset and attitude towards school and work seemed to have changed. It's as if I've suddenly decided that school's fairly important after all, and I might as well invest more time and effort in my work. It could be perhaps 'cause I want to prove to people that I'm not the person my 11-pointer label suggests I am, that I'm capable of better..? Yeah. Possibly so. I don't like the way things are now, and I know I have the ability and power to change certain aspects of it. So sub-consciously, I have the notion that I have to prove myself. To my teachers. To my peers. To my parents. To my friends. To myself. For some strange reason, all this makes sense. Joy! My mind's starting to work! The brain that's been occupying the cavity in my skull has started to function after 17 long years of life! Ah...... The grey matter's finally behaving like grey matter and not some poor copy-cat.
Methinks the more logical explanation would be that I'm finally able to see past the disappointment, see past all the opportunites that slipped through the grasp of my fingers, see past all that... And reason with myself that everything will be all right no matter where I land up after the March holidays. All I gotta do is kick myself out of the remnants of the holiday spirit still lurking in me from last December and gear my mind towards a more serious work attitude. :) Heh. Sounds easy, but looks (sounds) can be decieving... Or didn't you already know?
heard
those magic reindeer click @
8:11 PM
|
