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Sunday, May 16, 2004
Haven't had time for anything other than work this past week. Bleah. Still stuck with 2 lit essays that are due tomorrow. What in the world am I doing? Carol got me sick again. I've got a fever this time round. How wonderful. My head's pounding so bad that it feels like it's gonna explode. I've been sneezing non-stop the past 2 days - even sleep doesn't hold any form of relief anymore. I sneeze and cough in my sleep too.
Now I wonder if I'm doing the right thing. So many things have happened, and I haven't had time to sit and rationalise with myself, to sort through everything that's happened and make some sense out of it all. Oh, blah.
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9:18 PM
Saturday, May 08, 2004
What a strange strange week it has been. I laughed a lot, I'd gotten into a little trouble, I'd fallen and scraped my knee. I don't know what else to say. On Wednesday, I found out that I was gonna stand for council elections. Didn't know just what to do 'cause my interview went so badly that I'd constantly reminded myself not to expect anything good out of it. So I talked myself out of the idea of joining council, was quite happy thinking that hey, not getting through the interviews wouldn't be such a bad thing anyways. Then look at what happens. Bleah. Life is a game of chance, really. You're always thrown completely unexpected situations to deal with.
So now, I'm number 02. I've become a face attached to a number. I got quite frustrated yesterday when I was reminded of being an IJ prefect, with so much responsibility pegged on right down to your very behaviour. I don't like it when teachers tell me off by saying "Is this how a ____ should carry herself? Aren't you supposed to set a good example for your schoool mates to follow?" Oh... Aren't I just me? I'm just an inoculous girl, trying so hard to make her own life go right. I don't like much attention, I don't especially like to be noticed. How am I supposed to set an example for anyone to follow? Sighs. I don't know how anyone can expect me to be a role model for anyone. But... the moment I filled in the council application form, I think that's when I signed a silent agreement to take on whatever responsibility they throw on me. So I don't really have a right to complain. Yes. SO. I will shut-up.
Am about to go out to look at phones. *Yayness!- Will feel guilty about not doing work later, though. Stuff. It.
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2:13 PM
Monday, May 03, 2004
Am really really drowning in work. So frustrated. Why is there so freaking much to do and so little time? Besides, I'd decided that my sleep is THE most important thing of all. Why sweat over the small things? If I need 8-and-a-half hours of sleep every night (the extra half hour just for good measure), then that would mean that I have to sleep by 9 every night. Ooh. So funny. It's 11pm now. 2 hours past that 9pm hour that would give me my precious 8-and-a-half hours. I've still got an endless amount of GP work to cough up. Oh, and joy! - Lit too! Sighs. I shall chuck everything aside and sleep soon, I think. Can't be bothered anymore.
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11:00 PM
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