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Tuesday, August 31, 2004
Finishing your homework on time does have a damn satisfying feel to it. Writing 4 geog essays complete with diagrams makes me feel veryvery...accomplished. And the diagrams looks quite nice okay.
GP lesson in the com lab now. I kinda like gp classes in com labs. We get to do mostly anything we want with maximum freedom. Haha.. Like this. And I feel muchmuch better today, after handing up all my geog essays. Omg, I felt damn terrible last night as I was trying to finish up everything. Headaches at night are a bad thing when you've got two essays to write and you're getting frantic at 11pm.
Madam's damn funny. She keeps telling Michgoh and Nafis to stop hitting penguins. 'Cause like, they're playing this game where you hit a penguin with a stick and it flies through the air, and you see just how far it flies before stopping. It's really damndamn cute. I think I'll go play it too when I have the time. And come to think about it, I DO have the time now, since my suffocating 4 geog essays have been handed up. :)
Recess in about 5minutes time. I'm getting hungry. Yesterday's recess and lunch were spent rushing around the school getting from the voiddeck to the library to the nls 'cause of all the work due today. Today's recess and lunch will be a HUUUUGE improvement, whatever happens. Duck rice with extra char siew's damn fattening. It's really good, but extremely extremely fattening.
The bell for recess has gone! Yay!
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8:46 AM
Monday, August 30, 2004
One of those econs tutorials wayyy back, I remember (ms) tancc saying something about how people would try to avoid those white cabs 'cause they're older and supposedly more uncomfortable. I didn't believe her. Until today. I cabbed home with Dree and it was the most horrendous taxi ride I've ever experienced. In all my 16 years of life on this earth. It was extremely extremely bumpy and jerkyyy as hell and drove as if it was missing a tyre or something. And the roads were majorly jammed and it was utter complete chaos. To top it all off, I was worried that I wouldn't have enough to pay the cabbie. Like hello? Wouldn't $17.50 be like more than enough to send me to sentosa? Thankgoodness the fare didn't exceed. Thankgoodness I got home when I did. One more second in the stupid cab and I would have seriously thrown up. Got back home with a splitting headache and feeling dammmmnn nauseous. I feel slightly better now that I've taken a nice hot bath. Oh, and I didn't even feel like singing in the shower today. Which really says something, 'cause I sing in the bath everyday except for when I'm feeling veryvery sick or tired.
Ohhhhh. One and three-quarters left of those geog essays to finish tonight. I'm already so tired. I don't know how I'm gonna finish up by tonight man. Seriously. The only good thing that happened today was the completion of almost all my chinese homework! I've only got one more AO paper from the blue book to finish then both laoshi and I will be much happier people. :) Considering the fact that my weekend has been preeettttyy much taken over by pw, I think my managing to finish up most of my chinese work's quite an achievement. Haha. The good thing about being physically so exhausted is that you won't have the time or energy to dwell on stuff. Work's usually on the uppermost in your mind, and you find yourself just thinking about how to finish it all up. Which is good, actually. For me anyway.
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6:42 PM
I've finished my pw written report draft!!!
Problem is that it's about 300 words too long. Bloody hell. And I have no idea how to do the stupid bibliography. What am I supposed to do if the author of an article on a website doesn't put his name down 'cause he's too damn humble? Sheesh. Anyways.
I hatehatehate pw. I reallyreally do. Arggghhh.
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12:55 AM
Friday, August 27, 2004
Gosh. It's Friday night again. There's the prospect of not having to go to school for the next 2 days stretching out before me. Which I'm beginning to appreciate more now anyhow, now that schooldays are absolute killers. Now that I've gotten things into perspective again.
There's a ton of work to do this weekend. Such a dampener maaannn. Seriously. Sighh. But I think I'm finallyfinally getting into the momentum of things. It's a bit late by now, yes, but there's nothing I can do about all those minutes lost.
PW written report due on Monday. Geog essays due on Tuesday. E4 assignment due on Thursday. It all adds up to a damn lot of work to be done within the next week.
Stayed back today for pw for the first time ever outside of the pw slots on Mondays. Nartz called up some migration agency person for an interview and everything seemed to be going on real swell - we managed to get the person onto loudspeaker, and we even used Rachel's mp3 player to record the entire conversation. Butbut. We didn't think that the man's voice would be soooooo deep. We couldn't hear a thing of what he was saying on the recording. How verrrryy annoying.
(Ms) Leow seems to be annoyed with our class a lot recently. She got quite pissed with our class during geog tutorial today and said that our attitudes were questionable. Sighhh. She didn't know it, but I knew very well myself that MY attitude towards work the entire year through has been absolutely sucky. Made me quite ashamed to think of my couldn't-care-less mentality about schoolwork and all that.
People have said reeeeaaally nice things to me on the tag-board recently, and I'm reallyreally touched by everything. Really. Thankyou, guys. You have NO IDEA how much it all means to me actually. :) I'd reply now, but I'm really seriously falling asleep in my chair now and I think I'm beginning to become just a teensy-weensy bit incoherent. So I'll do the replies tomorrow or something. I'm off to bed! So much for enjoying Friday nights man. Haha. All I wanna do right now is crawl into bed. And SLEEP.
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7:59 PM
Wednesday, August 25, 2004
All of a sudden, I feel damn depressed again. Don't know why, I just do.
No. Actually, I do know the exact reason for the dip in my mood. But whywhywhy? Why now?? Arghh. I hate this. Ihateyou. For making me so damn depressed without even knowing you did. For everything. Ihateyou. Ihateme.
Didn't go to school this morning. I got up at 6am this morning and spotted the unfinished gp essay lying on my table. Then thought of the pw written report that's due this-bloody-friday, the e8 essay which I've done all of one paragraph, the 2 geog essays remaining and I really almost wanted to cry. As in, I just plopped myself onto my messed-up bed and dived under the covers and hugged my pillow tight and just wanted to cry. And then the stupid thought of the promos bounced happily into my tortured mind and I remembered (mr) lynn saying something about having to take 2 S-papers if you're a 3-subber and I thought of the 2Fs I got for my terms. And I reallyreallyreally wanted to just die. For all of 15minutes this morning, I just hid under my comforter and let the stress and misery overwhelm me. Then I heard Dad yelling from downstairs to hurry-up or everyone would be late and I decided that I wouldn't go to school today. It's damn bad, I know. But the thought of having to go to school and facing everyone made me feel so sick.
So anyway. Since I was up and fairly awake at 6 in the morning, I figured I'd finish up my gp essay before crawling back into bed for a longlong sleep.
The terribly heavy rain's stopped. The only signs of it having rained earlier is the soothing dripping of raindrops hitting the shingles outside and the wetwet ground. I like. And I feel fairly better now that I'm done with my gp essay. Shall do one thing at a time, so shan't worry about the pw waiting for me.
I still feel sad, yes, but the sadness has somewhat become a part of me. Like it's always there, only sometimes I hide it so well that I don't even realise it's there, but when I do, I know it'll never go away. 'Cause it's become a part of me and I don't know how to get rid of it short of having a heavyweight boxer knock me out and regaining consciousness with a complete concussion. Sometimes, I think that forgetting would be to die for, but other times, I refuse to forget 'cause the thought of erasing it totally from my mind makes me veryvery sad. So I think I'll continue to live with it.
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12:07 PM
Tuesday, August 24, 2004
Sometimes, things may seem all fine and dandy on the outside. Like you know, how you laugh and smile the whole day 'cause you're surrounded by greeeaaat friends who never cease to give you a moment without laughter? Like how your friends just give you the reason to smile even though late at night in your bed, you feel like you'll never ever smile genuinely again just because of that one thing? But deepdeep inside, suppressed and covered with layers and layers of other things, that one thing that bothers you still remains and won't seem to go away in spite of trying so hard to fill your day with a whirlwind of things to do in an attempt to make you not think about it. Like how you think making your body do all the thousand and one possible things in a day will eventually make you too tired out to think of that annoying thing. So all right, all that made absolutely zerosense. But I just needed to rant a bit to relieve that pent up frustration inside.
I think it's quite sad how everything seems so normal and nice, but you're the only one in the world who seems to think otherwise. That things that seem natural to others appear so contrived and forced to yourself. And I think that's sad. :(
But anyhow. Ranting aside, today was quite a good day too. Even though I've got a whole mountain of essays to finish within the next one week or so. Even though PW stress's making me incredibly short-tempered these days. Yeah. Today wasn't so bad by itself.
And. I've finally dropped math! I feel like quite a failure in a way, though. Just last year, the thought of doing so badly for my exams that the school'd force me to drop a subject as a last resort never even occured to me. The thought of me actually failing my term exams overall never even popped into my mind. But wellwell, look what we've got here. I've not only failed my exams quite spectacularly with 2-bloody-Fs, I'm also being told that I don't have the mental capability to handle 4 lousy A-Level subjects. What the hell's wrong with me? Sighhhh. I guess it's affected me even more than I thought it did. This is damn bad. I really need to snap out of it. Double-sigh. But I don't even know where to begin.
Went to BK at Heartland with Dree and Deborah after school today. I wanted to eat cheese nuggets and a sundae pie BUT. They were all out of stock. Sheesh. And I was so looking forward to eating either one all throughout the day okay. Oh-well. Oh. And geog tutorial was a total riot today. Laughed so damn hard man. And I actually felt fairly wide-awake for the entire duration of the tutorial for the first time in a long time too. Though I think that was 'cause I was laughing 90% of the time. But nevermind, staying awake IS staying awake after all.
Tag-board replies:
khin: WOMAN!!!! omg, i wish you were here too!!! you know, when i got your msg early this morning in class, this huge smile just popped up on my face and i was grinning like a complete idiot. seriously though, i was damndamn HAPPY to hear from you!! i felt damn down today. for some strange reason. and i really wish either you or tri were in ac with me now. not that i'm not having enough fun and all, but there's more to life than just all the happy moments, yes? sighh. i'd msg you at odd hours too if i could, but as it is, you don't have a phone. so this board seems like our only convenient communication link. how tragic!
jeanette: i was damn happy to see you guys too man! :) hmmm. actually, i kinda decided by mid-year that i was gonna try for ac.. but that was just me lah! what are your choices now anyways? er. i guess i should go tag your board sometime soon too 'cause you mayn't come by anytime soon eh? haha. yep, ALL THE BEST FOR YOUR PRELIMS!!!!
michwong: thanks dearie!! you feeling better yourself? get lots of rest so you'll get well soon! haha. you're so cute lah. you actually bring the whole huuuge packet of tissue to school! hahahaa..
stella: ohhhh. so 'prelims' is like a taboo word or something eh? oops! all righty then! hmmm. er. i miss the presence of the j2s in school!! feels so empty now that half the j2 cohort isn't in school every morning. sighh.
yongxi: hahahaha.... i'm going mad tooooo! gosh. today's geog tutorial was damn funny. i feel quite embarrassed for you, actually!
hiro: what happened to your blog?? anyways, go study! though you always deny the fact that you're a closet mugger, now's a good time to start mugging!
nartz: haha.... if you make more pink things when you're bored and send them to me, they'll all be up here too! :) i like pink man. goodness. i can feel myself become increasingly more stressed everyday!!
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8:40 PM
Monday, August 23, 2004
I'm extremely tired. Not only physically, but mentally and emotionally too. Sighhh. I wonder when all this tiredness will stop. I need a good long break. And I'm so looking forward to it.
Today went by in quite a blur. Actually, I find my schooldays passing by me in a strange hazy manner these days. Like I'm not really there, just sort of detached and observing myself do things from outside the window. Hmm. Let's see. Chapel this morning was all right. Nothing too special. Oh, but I especially liked one of the hymns they sang. Reminded me of praise and worship sessions during MY confirmation camp 2 years ago. Gosh. It seems like such a long time ago when I put it down in words, but the memories are still as fresh as ever in my mind.
I feel old, suddenly.
PW was quite all right today. All right, as in didn't do anything so therefore was all right. I am reeeeaally so gonna die for PW I think. Don't know how the hell the project's gonna come together any time soon. It's still so fragmented. But anyways. Spent the better part of PW laughing quite deliriously over this deluded guy's own fan-site to himself. Steven what's-his-name. He was the stripper on Singapore Idol. Gosh. It was seriously damn funny. He called himself a street eyebrow plucker or something and charged $10 per pluck. AND. There was a picture of him posing nude (I think) and strategically covering up certain bits. THAT was just wrong man. I almost died laughing when I heard him sing 'She Bangs'. Which, by the way, is the mother of all butt-of-the-joke songs ever since William Hung sung it.
Oh yes. The last interesting thing that happened today. Dree, Cher and I migrated to the other end of the classroom this morning 'cause a huge army of ants had infested the floor where our tables stood. Argh. Scared the hell out of me man, seeing that many ants swarming together. Ended up grabbing our tables and chairs and marching all the way to the other end of the classroom where the ants hadn't discovered yet. Oh. And our classroom door has no more doorknob.
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10:10 PM
Saturday, August 21, 2004
I'm just going to start on the first of my 4 remaining essays. Bleeaahh. Don't really feel like it. And I think I'm putting on weight. Dammit. How annoying. And all right, this WILL sound damn ambitious, but I'm gonna try to start revision for promos next week. Ohyes. And also try to convince mom and dad to let me drop math.
What an uphill battle man. And what a wasted day today's been. Spent the whole day at home slacking my ass off, sleeping away my gross feeling.
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11:15 PM
Nartz sent me this two nights ago and I think it's pretty. But then again, I find most pink things pretty enough. Heh. :P
Especially stars. Thanks Nartz! :)
Anyhow. Didn't go for the archeology thing AND yawp today 'cause I woke up with a terrible stomachache. Went to bed last night with a fever. When I started feeling nauseous and all throwy-up this morning, I decided that it had to be stomach flu. Felt daaaamn gross the whole morning and afternoon. Bad headache and stomachache, very dizzy. Argh. Feeling much much better now anyway.
I felt like changing my blog layout but I decided that I shouldn't waste time on doing this now. Hence the ready-made template from blogskins. Downloaded a few other templates with the intention of learning how to work with HTML after the promos. So yes. Can't wait for exams to be over, really.
Watched the table-tennis semis just now on tv. Li Jiawei lost. :( But it was quuuuiitee an interesting match. And the Korean was quite entertaining. They were both sooooooo fast. Goodness. Still, I think Asian women look more suited to playing on the tiny table-tennis table than huge Caucasian men do. When I see two men standing facing each other, bent over with the seemingly minute table between them, it just hits me how wrong it all looks. The size of everything in the game is practically Lilliputian. Scaled down. Like furniture in a doll's house. Seeing the men's doubles was even stranger. Oh-well.
Two more weeks till the September break. Then it's just 8 weeks of school standing between me and my longlong awaited December holidays. Hello to waking up at 9am earliest for almost 2 whole months! The thought almost makes me wanna weep noisily with overwhelming joy.
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7:33 PM
*My Happy Ending//Avril Lavigne
So much for my happy ending
Let's talk this over
It's not like we're dead
Was it something I did?
Was it something you said?
Don't leave me hanging in a city so dead
Held up so high on such a breakable thread
You were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be
You were everything, everything
That I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be
But we lost it
All the memories so close to me
Just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending
You've got your dumb friends
I know what they say
They tell you I'm difficult
But so are they
But they don't know me
Do they even know you?
All the things you hide from me
All the shit that you do
You were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be
You were everything, everything
That I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be
But we lost it
All the memories so close to me
Just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending
It's nice to know that you were there
Thanks for acting like you cared
Making me feel like I was the only one
It's nice to know we had it all
Thanks for watching as I fall
And letting me know we were done
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11:19 AM
Friday, August 20, 2004
Omg. I hate hate HATE yawp. Whatever it means anyway. Another Saturday completely wasted on stupid yawp. I just found out today that yawp tomorrow will only officially start at 7pm at The Chinese High. BUT. For reasons that I absolutely cannot comprehend, rehearsals for the retarded thing will start at 1230pm. Bloody hell. I'm damn pissed off okay. Sheeeeeeeeeeeeesssh. Do I look like I have nothing better to do with my Saturday afternoon? Because. Let me tell you. For the freaking last time. That I NEVER wanted to do this stupid thing anyway. I DON"T CARE about the points. I DIDN'T want the points either. The ONLY reason why I'm stuck in this ridiculous situation now is 'cause someone told me that this yawp rubbish is C-O-M-P-U-L-S-O-R-Y. So it's compulsory if the other half of drama was given a choice as to whether they wanted to take part or not???? Liar.
Bloody hell. Seriously. I'm damn pissed. I hate yawp. I hate being positively conned into doing something I never wanted to do in the first place anyway. I'm going to explode with annoyance and irritation.
And. I signed up for some archeology thing at St. Andrew's Cathedral tomorrow morning. Under ANY other circumstances, I'd really be looking forward to doing it. I mean, it sounds interesting, and hey, you get to dig on church ground using foot-long shovels. You don't get to do this everyday you know.
But thanks to bloody yawp, I so do not want to go anywhere tomorrow. 9am at St. Andrew's Cathedral with the prospect of staying out until 10pm for dumb yawp?? I want to SCREAM. And to put it very mildly, I'm DAMN PISSED.
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11:40 PM
Wednesday, August 18, 2004
Wow. This is my 100th post!! Hmmm. I know. I shall blog in colour today to commemorate my century of posts!
The week so far after the last weekend has been pretty hectic. Come to think of it, it's really been quite crazy. I've been getting home at 730pm for the past 2 days and collapsing into bed by 1130pm latest whether or not I finished my work. I struggled really hard yesterday night to keep my eyes open and my brain working to finish up (ms) ngxy's e1 essay. And I still think I've written 4-sides worth of complete-absolute crap. How disappointing.
Today went by fairly quickly as far as Wednesdays go. I got a blue slip to leave at 1215pm to go back to ij to help out in the ac talk thing. You know, those talks that serve the purpose of getting more people to choose the jc, EVEN when a fair number of applicants fail to get in every year due to a severe lack of vacancies? Yeah. That's it. Anyhow. It felt so weird to be on the receiving end of questions this time round. I still remember how it was last year when I had been one of those girls in blue-and-white sitting crossed-legged on the hall floor, watching the video, enraptured by the deceptively greener pastures of jc-life outside ij. Now that perception's completely changed. Ij was so much better, and I so do not like jc.
Well. Yeah, it's been preeettty fun these days with my Pals, so it does make going to school a whole lot better. REALLY. But the insane workload's slowly killing me. Though I must say schoolwork does seem a whole load more interesting when you actually want to learn. I think I've learnt more in the last two weeks or so due to this changed mindset than I've learnt throughout the entire year.
So anyways. When I left ij this afternoon, it was only 230pm. I got down at the bus-stop outside Novena church with the intention of walking to the station, when I suddenly had this strange urge to walk into the church. So up the hill I went, and as I walked, I felt this peaceful feeling just settling over me. Like it was just me, the cloudy sky and the wind blowing on my face, and the church looming in the distance, and nothing else seemed to matter anymore. I don't know how to describe what I felt this afternoon as I sat in the quiet church, just soaking up the tranquil atmosphere, thinking and praying.
I've never once went to church because I wanted to in the past. Today was the first time I'd felt like going to church, just because. It really felt good, being in the church this afternoon. Trying to let go of all my trivial problems and fears, hopes and dreams, and especially disappointments, and just leaving it all to Him. I knew that He wouldn't need me to list out all the things that were bothering me, but I still did anyway. 'Cause I just felt like it. And when I finally stood up to start my slow walk back down, I felt different. Not severely different, just that I had this serene feeling in my heart. And even when I starting thinking about all my issues again, I didn't feel so damn miserable. I felt somewhat comforted. Arrrggh. I don't know how else to put what I want to say. This is really disjointed. So nevermind. Shan't continue trying.
So even as I sit here before my computer screen typing all this in, the whole day seems to have passed by me with me as the by-stander. There's been a fuzzy dream-like quality to the day. Like it's all so surreal, like I'm having one of those really life-like dreams where you think you're awake 'cause everything seems too real, but you know you've gotta be asleep 'cause you distinctly remember climbing into bed and flicking the light switch off.
It's been quite a good day, actually. :) The week's gone by so quickly. Just like that. Tomorrow's Thurday already!! Then it's just one more day to the weekend, and the whole cycle repeats itself again. Sheeesh. Last term seemed like it was going by in slow-motion. This term. Ha. Feels like someone's hit the fast-forward button and is holding on to the button really tight. I get up every morning and think about the whole long day stretching out before me. And before I know it, I'm back in my room, brushing my teeth and ready to jump into bed. It's insane.
Econs essay test tomorrow. (Ms) Jamie Tan's reminding me that I have to drop a subject. Dammit. Mom and dad are so not gonna be happy. I can just imagine their protopathic reactions to my announcement tonight at the dinner table. Protopathic, by the way, is a word I've picked up from e4 class recently. Anyway. As I said just 120 words ago. Econs test tomorrow. I think I'm gonna drop math after all 'cause my math really seems quite hopeless. I got back my trigo test - I got a gross 3 out of 22. Sighhhh.
Still gotta do my GP essay outlines. And omg, I can't even think about stupid pw without feeling like screaming. The written report's due, what, next Friday, and my group still has zero clue about the whole dumb project. I am SO bloody dead. Seriously. If I do pass my pw, remind me to throw a party or something. I'll be damn happy if we DON'T get the lowest possible mark.
So what would I do if I could hit the "back" button in my life and go back to re-do some stuff in my life? It's been an essay question for more than one subject just in the last fornight or so. I just wrote one for Chinese and I think I'm gonna write another one for GP. But really, if I do write one with all my personal experiences, I think I could actually publish a full 400-page novel.
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5:50 PM
Sunday, August 15, 2004
I was watching the Olympics gymnastics event on tv this afternoon. And it's so verrrrrryy nice. The gymnasts are really graceful and all. And powerful too. I love it when they do their flips and cartwheels. Gosh. Spent the whole afternoon watching the Olympics today. Then I tried starting on (ms) ngxy's e1 assignment. Ohhh. I don't even know how to start maaannn.
Anyhow. The weekend's almost over. Like, 10 hours or so before I have to go to school again. I'm having a serious case of Sunday Night Blues. I reallyreally cannot wait for the December holidays to come.
There's one thing I'm looking forward to doing tomorrow, though! My new shoes! Hahahaaa.. I feel so kiddish suddenly. Like how when I was in primary school, and when I'd just bought a new bag over the weekend, I'd be really excited to carry my new bag to school on the following Monday morning. I'm kinda feeling that now, only that the excitement's about 10 times more subdued. But hey, new anything is always quuuiitee exciting okay.
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7:49 PM
Saturday, August 14, 2004
Yesterday. I passed my PFT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Aaaahhhh!!!
And I thought I couldn't get any happier than after passing my 2.4. No more dreading PE every Thursday and Friday! No more running and running round the track like an IDIOT. YAY! :))
Went down to Queenstown with dad to buy a new pair of shoes today! They're so pretty! Pink shoes!!! I loooove pink. Had quite a lot of trouble finding the shoes in my size. I liked a lighter pink one, but it was like the last pair in size4 in 3 shops. Sheesh. Practically no-one has feet that small okay. I almost got a guy's shoe 'cause my feet are quite a weird size. But the salesman either couldn't understand English or wasn't paying attention to what I said 'cause when I told him I wanted a size6-half, like the one on display, he said okay like 6 times before coming back with a size7. In a totally different colour. Hmm.
I can't seem to blog properly today. I think I'm still kinda giddy with all my excitement. My whole body aches like hell maaann.
But anyway. I don't care. No more sucky PE until next January okay. And that's better than managing to scrape a pass for econs test.
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10:49 PM
Thursday, August 12, 2004
Oh. My. GOD.
I passed my 2.4 today!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm just going to explode with happiness. It's taken me how long to even psyche myself up to finish running my 6-rounds, don't even TALK about running within 17.10mins. But. I ran my BEST time ever today - 16.38mins.
Gosh. The ecstasy's still working its magic. I'm still damn happy, and it's been the looonngest time since I've come as close to feeling as happy as I was in the first 3 months. Sighh.
NOTHING can spoil my mood tonight. Not even the econs essay that's waiting.
I passed my 2.4, I passed my 2.4!!! It's taken me something like the whole of last term and this term - which makes 15 weeks so far - but I've done it!!! Wheeeee!
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7:00 PM
Wednesday, August 11, 2004
There's Singapore Idol tonight!!!
Omg, the first episode was really quite retarded. Tri and I were talking about it the other day, whether or not it exceeded or was below our expectations. While Tri kept saying that she was disappointed, I actually thought it was pretty good. Considering the fact that there's been quite a lot of talk about how Singaporeans are afraid to lose face and all. Those that appeared on tv actually did manage to lose some face. Not like they had much of a choice, really. The guy who was singing this song reeeeeaaally really softly - and this line "Please do not adjust the volume of your tv sets. This is the actual volume." just rolled right across the screen. Well. I thought he was singing nonsense 'cause like I couldn't make out ANY tune at all when he was singing. Yes. Apparently. The song he was singing was "Careless Whisper".
I asked Koko Maggie if she could get me tickets to watch Idol at MediaCorp. And she actually told me on Monday that she DID ask her friend and we're probably getting 10 tickets. Whee! Last time I watched something being taped live in the studio was Millionaire in Sec3. The day after that episode was screened, my teachers told me that they saw me with my friends on tv. It was damn funny, 'cause I didn't even realise that it was THAT episode which I'd watched. Anyhow. I hope the tickets I get for Idol won't be for a date too near the exams. Or I won't reallyreally enjoy it as much as I could.
There's Singapore Idol tonight!!!
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4:58 PM
My goodness. I think I'm really getting addicted to Sakae's soft shell crab handrolls. Met Dree yesterday at Heartland to study and had this rather shaky resolution to limit my spending to 5 bucks and below. Well. Spent about $4-plus on pens at Popular and I was thinking like, hey! Looks like I'll stick to my budget after all! 'Cause like, I'd kinda eaten lunch before I left the house, so yeahhh.. Didn't really have to spend on lunch, see.
ANYWAY. After settling down at BK with a ginormous iced tea and a little tray of cheese nuggets, I started writing my geog essay. That cost about 3 bucks or so, meaning I'd overshot by about 2 dollars. Which really ain't that bad. Speaking of BK's cheese nuggets. They're really quuuuiiitee delicious and all. But. They're a total-complete-absolute ripoff. Really! $2.40 for a little tray of 8 nuggets isn't exactly worth it, yes? Sighhh. But anyway. Dree and I felt like munching on something else as the afternoon went on, so we took off to get some sushi. Intended to get those little crabrolls from Edo that cost 60cents for two. But when we got there, I saw the huge green Sakae sign just 2 shops down. And I thought about soft shell crab handrolls. And that was it. My resolve to limit my spending to only neccessities just flew out of my head. Like that. I really like jap food. I wonder if it's addictive, though? Been having this gnawing craving to eat sushi again suddenly ever since last Friday.
There's an annoying trigo test tomorrow. I have a terribleterrible feeling that I'm going to fail. Again. I tried making sense out of the tutorials I copied off the board, but everything looked like complete nonsense to me. The numbers made zerosense. I am sooooooooo dead. On the other hand, I managed to finish two geog essays during the extended weekend. Wow-whee! I really feel damn accomplished maaannn. It's like I've suddenly realised that I CAN actually do my work if I want to - and it's not that I'm stupid or something.
Oh yes. We gave Cher her belated present today! She was just so cute when she saw it. Hahahaaaa... With eyes wide-open and shrieks and all. We love you Cher dear! :) Speaking of shrieks. There was this girl who let out an exceptionally high-pitched shriek during e4 today. Omg. It was really damn shrill. One more case to prove my point that the school should do something about the lousy walls. I'm hungry again. Sheesh. Food-cravings are so not good. I land up eating alot more than I usually would and find myself substantially rounder around the middle after I'm done. Bleeeaahh. No. I will not eat until dinner time.
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amy: hieee dear! how's everything in hk? i suppose i should go tag your board again instead of saying all this to you here right? hahaahaaa.. all righty then!
chingjoo: heellloo! how's life as a councillor anyway? proud of you!
khin: yeahh. golden girl of the moment, that's my khin! haha... so did you try my suggestion? :D well. take care of yourself k? carry an umbrella and hairspray when you go out so you can smack him (it's a him right??) and blind him if he tries to be funny. or. you could just kick him... where it hurts! ha. when's school starting for you anyway? remember what you're supposed to do for me? *nudge
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4:20 PM
Monday, August 09, 2004
It's National Day today! Whee. Singapore's turning, what, 39 today? Yeahh. That's pretty young for a country, considering the fact that America's probably 200+ years old or something. Still no flag this year, though. Mom and dad never believed in hanging a flag outside for National Day only to have to take it down to wash before the government fines us for displaying the flag after the legal display date.
Stayed up until 1 plus last night to finish up one geog essay. You know, it seems so pathetic here - one essay - but I felt so proud of myself as I wrote in "in conclusion" and blaaahh. Four (all right, maybe three-and-three-quarts) sides worth of words does seem like quite an accomplishment for one night's worth of work, yes?
Chinese tuition just now was... Not very enlightening. Sighhh. Can't wait to drop the GROSS subject. You know, there was this article the other day in the papers where SM Lee said something about the average person not being able to be completely 100% bilingual - in effect, I think he means that only linguistic geniuses can be just as proficient in English as well as in Chinese. Since I am so not a genius of any sort, that excludes me. Meaning. My disgusting Chinese is somewhat normal. I owe laoshi a whole ton of work. Seriously. I wonder how I'll finish it all by year-end. Ohhh. Speaking of Chinese. Apparently, there's gonna be a Chinese exam this Saturday. Like HUH????? Since when?? No one said anything about any Chinese exam happening anytime within the next month or so. Sheesh. You'd think they'd at least bother to tell us - even though they probably think I'm gonna fail beautifully. But STILL!
I'm waiting for mom and dad to come back from grocery shopping. They're supposed to pick up lunch for Carol and I, and it's what, 230pm already. I'm starving.
And I think the Wheelock management should think about investing in more dustbins. I went there on Saturday and spent 15-bloody-minutes walking up and down the floor just looking for a damn dustbin. Guess what?? - there wasn't a single dustbin on the whole of the second floor. Hello??? Isn't there some Clean-and-Green campaign running now or something? If I'm encouraged not to throw my rubbish on the floor, and there are NO dustbins anywhere. Then. What the heck am I supposed to do with my trash? Eat it?? Sometimes. I swear. People don't think.
Just spend a few hundred bucks furnishing the corridor with dustbins, and maybe there'll be less need to hire that many cleaners. Well. Unless they're trying to maximise employment by increasing the cleaner-workforce. Okay, so this is getting quuuiiitee out-of-point. I want to eat.
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2:22 PM
Saturday, August 07, 2004
Met up with Dree and Chels for dinner at Wheelock Place. It was preeeettty fun. And this is completely random, but I'm tired now.
NYDC's cheesecake is simply heavenly maaann. Seriously. It came with this scoop of chocolate chip ice-cream and a small jug of chocolate sauce. Mmmmm. It was REALLY good. And so so sinful too. Imagine the amount of sugar going into my body. Oh-well.
Got Cheryl's present from Borders. Oh my goodness, I LOVE the stuff at Borders. I love Borders. They had all these really pretty colourful stationery. It was seriously veerrrry girly. Stripes and dots and flowers and dragonflies and cute little animals. Sheeeesh. I could like blow my entire allowance in a single visit to Borders just buying a million and one pretty little things that I probably wouldn't find much use for anyway. Wow-whee. I like the stuff we bought for Cheryl! It's all just so... pretty. For lack of a better adjective.
Laoshi just messaged to ask if we could reschedule tomorrow's tuition to Monday afternoon instead 'cause she's sick. Poor laoshi. :( I hope she's feeling better. Feeling unwell really seriously sucks.
Ohhh. That means I'll have the entire day tomorrow to myself. Sighhh. Looking forward to a day spent in the company of my reams and reams of schoolwork! Psyching myself up so I can do my work tomorrow in a happier mood. Being happy releases endorphines, which improve a person's performance and thinking capacity. So yes. Come on endorphines. Do your job!
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11:50 PM
*Single//Natasha Bedingfield
My homework situation's starting to become dire. I went to bed last night thinking about how just how I was ever gonna come up with 8 essays - that's about 40 sides of paper - worth of words that actually make some sense. Aaahhh. I'm really so so SO dead.
Got out of bed feeling completely PMS-ed this morning. Never a good start to any day, least of all a Saturday when you're supposed to be able to sleep in late. I think PE does funny things to your body. My cycle's like all messed up and wonky.
Anyhow. Didn't want to skip geog lect for drama today and I told Sherman so. BUT. There was some sort of communication breakdown which culmulated in me stomping around school with a black black face and furious tears threatening to spill out of my eyes - which did happen in the end, but that's completely beside the point. Point is, I was damn annoyed at the whole disorganised mess drama is from my point of view. And especially since this happened on Day 1 when my hormones are wrecking havoc to my emotions and body, and you can just imagine the foul foul mood I was in.
I realise that I'm the sort of person who needs order and organisation just to function well, much less thrive. Without any form of planning or when I'm thrown something to do at the very freaking last minute, my fuse just blows. It's bad, I know. I get so damn pissed, and the worst thing is that I don't even bother to hide my severe displeasure when I'm in that weird state of mind. Felt so bad about snapping at every single breathing person today. I did apologise, yes, but... Sighhh. Nevermind. Some things can't be taken back with a mere sorry.
Thankyou Chels, for making me feel better today. Seriously, when I met her at Hwa Chong, my glum mood just slowly evaporated away and everything didn't seem half as bad anymore. :) What would I do without my girlfriends maannn. Really. My girlfriends make life so much easier to muddle through that I think I'd just diiieeee without them.
Gonna meet Dree and Chels later at Orchard to get Cheryl's present. And. I have a strong urge to drop by Bits and Pieces again to buy another pair of earrings. No no. Cannot. Must control myself.
I feel myself cramping up. Dammit. I'm gonna go sleep my cramps and crazy hormonal imbalance away. Or I may just land up doing something I'll seriously regret later on, and BOY have I done enough things that've made me wanna kick myself in exasperation for my sheer stupidity. I've done enough brainless things this year alone to last me for the rest of my life, thank you very much. So yes. Shall sleep.
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tri: yeahh... we're such suckers for fairy-tales eh? and YES, whoever said ella enchanted's not a good show ought to have a complete head examination. i'm gonna tape down the HC school song next time you sing it. it was dammmnn hilarious maann!! only thing missing: long live chairman mao!! haha... sheeeessh. seriously. it sounds vaguely like a dumex 3+ ad. :D
khin: why's it boring? remember you're supposed to take pictures of all those cute guys in various strange poses and send it back to meee! hahaaa.... yep, i did the control-c thing the second time i posted - THANK GOODNESS 'cause the same thing happened again. if blogger had wiped out my second post... i tell you... i would have SHRIEKED.
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2:20 PM
Friday, August 06, 2004
8 essays due by the 31st of August:
42 phy geog
e1 assignment #2
e4 assignment #2
e8 assignment #2
econs tutorial 4 Q2b
Plus all the overdue Chinese homework I owe laoshi.
I am SO dead.
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10:09 PM
Dammit. There's something seriously screwed with blogspot. Or maybe it's just my blog. I don't know. Anyhow. I'm damn damn annoyed. I typed in this really nice cheerful post about my day today just now and I clicked on 'publish post'. And what happens? I'm told that the URL doesn't exist and when I clicked on the back button, I find that my post's been completely eradicated. Poooofffle.
So yes. Shall just re-type whatever I can remember in this post. Still verrry irritated.
Today was National Day celebrations. Felt really primary school, singing all those National Day songs with fundamental messages like "I love Singapore!". There was a band on stage accompanying the teachers singing, which I thought was preeeetttty cool. Then there were the dancers. It was quuuiitee strange, but oh-well. I guess it was supposed to make the whole thing more interesting. Besides feeling extremely primary school like, especially when we stood on the chairs, I had a sudden desire to wave a tiny Singapore flag as I sang. Images of communists back in the 1960s popped into my mind, them with their red-and-yellow flags and patriotic, propoganda-ish songs.
School was out by 10am (a fact which I thought was the major highlight of the whole thing). Met Trina at about 11am and lunched at the Heeren Sakae. I love soft-shell crab handroll. It's yummy!! :) And the fact that it's not exorbitantly priced makes it even better - it just takes two rounds of $1.90 to make me a happy girl for the moment.
We wanted to watch Ella Enchanted but it wasn't showing anywhere in the whole of Orchard. Had to go down to Junction8 to catch our show - and spent $7.50 on a lousy front-row seat that distorts everything and everyone on screen. Even Nicole Kidman looked strange, and that's saying something.
Ella Enchanted was damn damn nice! And I think Anne Hathaway's gorgeous. I love her eyes. I think I liked the show so much 'cause I'm a HUGE sucker for fluffed-up fairy-tale endings with the girl landing up Living Happily Ever After with her wonderful Prince Charming. Long live innovation and thick-skinness among IJ girls. Tri and I decided to seat on the floor at the back of the cinema 'cause our seats were horrible. Went right to the back and found a couple of empty seats in the back row and just sat in them. That probably prevented me from blowing $7.50 watching distorted people on-screen while I develop a humongous neck-ache. Golden Village should really consider charging lower rates for front-row seats in the tinier cinemas. This is a case whereby Price Discrimination would be BENEFICIAL.
I've been struck with an earring obsession. Shopped for some more earrings today and I suddenly felt guilty 'cause I realised that I've been buying at least a new pair almost everytime I go out with anyone. Bad bad bad. Bought 4 pairs of earrings today. Oh dear. Tri's been bitten by a flower-earring bug so we were shopping around for nice flower earrings. Didn't manage to find anything particularly nice (except for this pair of prettypretty pink flower earrings at Heeren which cost 14 bucks). Argh. Stop buying earrings!!
I decided that I really do NOT like the red-and-white combination. I saw something like a million people in their red-and-whites today, 9 out of 10 of them were schoolkids. Seriously. The person who came up with the oh-so-brilliant idea of getting schools to allow students to wear their red-and-whites on celebration day didn't consider many other Terrible Things that could happen as a result of that. Celebration days are usually half-days in every school, meaning that almost the entire school-children population in Singapore will be out somewhere at any given time. If every school encourages their students to turn up in red-and whites, imagine the immense, nauseating HEADACHE someone not in red or white - like me - would experience upon having to tolerate walking among such glaring colours on almost everyone in the crowd. Grossness.
Still pissed at blogspot. Half-an-hour's worth of typing. Just gone. Like that. Argh.
Geog lect tomorrow morning. It should be made illegal for schools to have any lessons during long weekends. Seriously.
Bleeeeaaahh.
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6:22 PM
Thursday, August 05, 2004
Long weekend's just around the corner. So CANNOT WAIT. School these past few days have been pretty much fun fun fun. Thanks to the Pals! Haha... Seriously. Without them, school life would be that much more boring.
So many things have happened in the last 3 days or so but I don't seem to have the time to talk about any of that now. Life's been just whizzing by me like nobody's business. And one thing just happens after the other. Maybe the stress's finally getting to everyone else too? I was walking back to class today during lunch when a bottle sailed through the air and landed at my feet. It was Ian and Zach. They were throwing this bottle up and down through the window and laughing non-stop while at it. So maybe the stress's getting to them too. Heh.
Ooh. So many things happened but I can't seem to blog properly tonight! Argh. So annoying. It's like all disjointed.
No point in trying to blog anything that makes sense tonight I suppose. Oh yes. But I have to say that I ALMOST passed my 2.4 today! Wonderful feeling. Failed by a mere 5seconds instead of the usual 30seconds today. I'm finally Improving. It's about time, really.
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9:42 PM
Monday, August 02, 2004
The rain's stopped.
I'm bored.
I'm hungry.
What should I do?
Hmmmm...
I'm going to buy lunch.
This is a preeetty out-of-point post.
Oh-well.
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10:18 AM
Woke up this morning with completely no voice, a horrendous splitting headache and a slight fever. On one hand, I wanted to go to school 'cause I had stayed up til 2 last night to finish up my human geog essay. But I decided that there wouldn't be much point in going if I couldn't talk without sounding vaguely like a frog. So yes. At home now while the rain falls.
The rain always puts me in a melancholic, sad, depressed mood. It always makes me think and I've realised that thinking too much is terrrribble for me. Sigh. Does funny things to my mind and makes me damn pissed at everything and anything in the world. I keep thinking about how everyone seems to have moved on while I'm still stuck where I am. I wonder if I'm the problem. I start entertaining thoughts of quitting school to set up a carrot farm or a fish shop somewhere. Nope. NOT good.
Sometimes, nice memories of the past give me a warm fuzzy feeling whenever I think about them. But then. It hits me that it all happened IN THE PAST, and it's not gonna happen again. And I feel lost. The nice feeling inside just evaporates and I'm left with this miserable feeling of drained hope and other crappy feelings like that. I wish I could re-do some things that I did. I really do. Like Hermione in Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Askaban. She had this cool time-turner thing that rewound time and let her go back into the past. I wish I had one of those so I could go back through time to set some things right again. Seriously. I'd pay good money to do just that.
Dammit. I hate getting trapped in my own head and rambling about how I think my life's messed up and all. So yes. I'll stop just HERE. :)
Econs test tomorrow. Tried reading the bit about perfect competition in Sloman's red book and it actually made a bit of sense. Gives me the idea of reading some more later. Think I'm going to freaking-fail this stupid test again (hey! alliteration maannn..), but no harm giving it a shot eh? Yes-yes. Musn't be so negative all the time. I actually did my chinese 5-year-series yesterday to hand it up to laoshi today. Decided that I should Turn Over A New Leaf and Do My Homework More Often. So proud of myself. Wow-whee.
Think I'm gonna get Chinese take-away from the shop outside. I like the feeling of eating out of a box. I don't know why, I just find it suuuuucch a novelty. Like the food seems more scrumptious and all. Hmmmm... It's probably all in the mind. Oh-well. Eating out of a cardboard box is STILL fun fun fun. Plus. I don't have to wash up any plates after I eat. See? It's a double bonus.
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8:25 AM
Sunday, August 01, 2004
The weekend's almost over. I felt as if I haven't actually rested the whole of this week. Friday and Saturday were taken up by the Night of Laughter. It was damn damn awesome, really. Laughed soooo hard, especially at Tim's "tell me more, tell me mooooorre!" All the geog students were laughing so hard that the rest of the audience probably thought we'd gone dotty. I laughed so hard that my sides ached so badly after that. Goodness.
Chels and I had some duct-tape-tearing competition yesterday. Actually, tearing duct-tape's really quite therapeutic, don't you think? You just rip at the black strip and it comes out with a satsfiying sound. Anyway. Went out for supper with Dree, Tiff, Jon and Chels yesterday night after the whole thing. Dree and I couldn't agree on whether BK closed at 11 (what she thought) or 12 (what I thought). So we bet one french fry on the closing time. I can't remember who now, but either Dree or Chels asked the girl behind the counter what time they closed. She shot us a straaange look and said that they'd be closing at 12. Ha. So I won one french fry. We were laughing like we had all gone mad or something. I have no idea why we were so tickled at the most trivial things. Must have been 'cause it was pretty late by then and we were all quite tired.
And I was telling Chels about something that had happened earlier on, and I ended by saying "So now, I think HE thinks that I'm a psycho." Chels burst out laughing like there was no tomorrow and I started laughing too, for some bizarre reason, and Dree, Jon and Tiff just stopped right in their tracks and turned round to eyeball us suspiciously. It was damn hilarious. Pals, last night was great. Heh. We really should have supper out together more often (though not in my ugly drama blacks please).
Cabbed back from Holland V with Dree and Chels and got back home at about 1130. I got to my door and used my key to let myself in. And what do I hear? I hear Carol and Koko Maggie running down the stairs two at a time and I hear Carol say something like "Who's that? *gasp!* I think it's a thief!!", with the "I think it's a thief" being said as if enlightenment was suddenly bestowed on Carol. I was like, HELLO??? You mean they didn't know that I wasn't home yet? Then I remembered that I was supposed to call home to get Koko Maggie to pick me up from YCK station. Oh. Oops. So now, I kinda like owe everyone a whole lot of money. This sucks. I hate owing people money.
Was supposed to get up at 6-ish to follow Koko Maggie down to St Anne's church to help out with the family stall at the fun fair today, but I was toooooo too exhausted to even open my eyes before 8. By the time I had enough energy to open one eye at about 830, Carol was already on her way out of the house (I heard the door slamming shut) and I realised that I had to attend mass by myself. :( Set my alarm for 945 and went back to sleep. Figured I'd decide on what to do when I got up later. The stupid alarm woke me up, and I decided to try to make it for the 11am mass at SVDP. Trudged out of the house groggily at 1020, walked along the pavement half-asleep until I walked past a rubbish truck and the smell hit me. THEN. I woke up for real. Caught 70 at the bus-stop across the road, and started to panic 'cause I realised I had no idea where to stop. True enough, I got off the at the wrong stop - 2 stops too soon - and walked for 15 minutes in exasperation to church.
Cabbed to St Anne's after that and queued up for 45 freaking minutes for a packet of fried kway teow with Christian. As we were eating, I was trying to convince him to come to AC next year. Said we could go home together after school and his dad could pick him up after dinner. It made sense, actually, though it looks like I was spouting rubbish here. It started pouring just as we were clearing up. I hate walking around in jeans when it rains. The bottom gets so wet and icky and it's just daaaammmn GROSS. *shudders* Ugh.
Oh, OH... Stop thief, stop thief, stop thief!!! Hahaha... Jon's lines made me laugh too.
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