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Tuesday, January 04, 2005
Bloody annoying school has started again bleah. Actually it isn't all that bad, or hasn't been too bad so far anyway. 'Cause my timetable's been revamped and I get to go home early on Tuesdays AND Wednesdays AND Fridays and I'm mighty pleased. New form teacher and new classroom. New classroom's severely life-threatening and presents potential embarrassments. The steps are like totally steep and I was thinking that if I do happen to miss a step and roll down, that'd be the end of me.
And mass pe's just totally ridiculous. The track's being repaired or something to that effect hence we can't run on it. Like duh right. SO. The teachers are making us run around the outside compound of the school and do our crunches pushups whatever on the smiley on the freaking hill!!!!!!!! God, I'm like so gonna wilt and die tomorrow.
I'm probably pmsing like crazy now though I was in a perfectly happy mood this afternoon when I left. Saw something on the way home that set me thinking and I'm in this awful gloomy state now which seems to match the grey of the sky which makes it look dangerously close to pouring. I wish I didn't have to go back to school 'cause the happy carefree days of the December holidays have already been almost completely replaced by my agitation at all things pertaining to unpleasant memories that haunt me and float into my mind at the most unexpected times. GRRR.
I wish I could talk to somebody, I mean really really just talk. But when I think about it, I realise that I wouldn't be able to collect all the bits of my thought and talk about it anyway. I wish I could just stop going to school so I won't be so periodically upset anymore. I wish I could just disappear from the face of this earth or more realistically, just disappear to another country for good. And I wish, I just wish for myself to be at peace with myself.
Plus the blister on the heel on my foot's totally killing me. I can so see myself wincing in utmost and extreme pain as I trudge through mass pe. Unless some miracle happens and my blister ceases to exist or becomes totally over-sized and fully horrific enough to excuse me from pe. Medium-sized blisters are the pits I tell you. They do nothing to get you out of pe and only hurt like heck for the longest time ever.
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4:46 PM
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