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Monday, January 31, 2005
Swimming pe today was quite a lot of gooood fun! Haha! Played water polo and I actually made myself useful during the game okay. I scored twice thanks to my wonderful pal Dree (I must acknowledge her help or she'll say I'm a fraud). Stayed back to do food run with Dree and I must say I haven't had the chance to reeeaally irritate her like I used to last year 'til today! Hoho!
School today literally passed by in a blur 'cause I didn't wear my contacts. It's funny but I feel kind of different after the weekend. Less heavy-hearted and depressed now.. which is GOOOOD!! They say that happy hormones make you look more attractive, so I SHOULD try to refrain from becoming upset as that'll take my happy hormones away. I finished my e4 essay at 1am last night but I felt pretty accomplished after that! :) The more I looked at the words I'd written, the happier I felt. Don't really know why either. Now the smallest little things that happen make me happy. Must be due to the good mood that I'm in since I've met my deadlines and set some things in my life as straight as they'll ever ever be. Or maybe I could do more, but I'm too tired right now to do any more than I've done.
To adhere to my new resolution to do my work on time so that it won't pile up, I shall try to start on my physical geog tutorial which is due on Thursday. So if I do one tutorial today, and another tomorrow, then I can study for econs on Wednesday. Haha I'm getting organised!
I didn't see you today much and everything's still the same but I want to tell you that I was never angry with you (for long) though I have to admit I was furious the first few days. But after that initial period, the anger had left me and all that filled me was sadness. You're pretty much happy now and I'm glad that you are. And if you ever wanna look me up (I do want you to look me up), you know what to do don't you? If I could, I'd turn back time and go back to before everything started and stop myself from being impulsive. But as it is I cannot and so I'll have to live with the haunting memory of you. Though I wish that I could have done more, still I wanna THANK YOU for letting me try to explain - though I think I didn't explain very well. I'll always miss. you.
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