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Tuesday, February 15, 2005
After a long weekend stretching to the Valentine's Day Monday yesterday, I went back to school today. Rather begrudgingly, I might add.
I've decided I don't really like school.
During morning assembly today, I was presented with a post-it from a teacher saying that I'd failed to report for dc last Friday and I'd better go look for her during recess today or she'd smack me with a demerit. What. The. HELL. I wasn't late last Friday. I don't recall being booked last Friday. I was very comfortably early last Friday for the first time in a long time actually, after Ash Wednesday service in the morning. So anyway to cut a long boring story short, I found my form teacher during recess and told her that good grief NO, I wasn't late last Friday wasn't booked last Friday was actually quite early last Friday. Ms Ho said she'd help me check it out and she told me during class time that apparently, some girl who WAS late used my name and class to get herself out of trouble. Leaving me to wonder and think hard about where I was last Friday. Stupidly but luckily for me, she'd cooked up some made up ic number that so wasn't mine. SHEESH MAN. I don't know what to say. Um.. Yes, I still don't know what to say. Whatever okay. I don't even know what to think.
A black chicken ran towards me as I was walking home from the bus stop today. I looked at it in amusement and it stopped on the grass patch next to the pavement and started to wander around looking damn lost. Haha I think the chicken was funny! I was watching some show on Animal Planet about the Chinese zodiac signs and I found out that rabbits are supposed to be gentle, docile, sociable and non-confrontational. All the above describe me pretty well EXCEPT the sociable bit which I find pretty laughable. Sometimes, I feel like the most un-scociable creature on the planet. I think it's 'cause I'm veryvery prone to mood swings and I feel particularly bad if I show my lousy mood so I try to hide it from people but then I feel doubly worse, so my mood swings affect me harder than they really should. I was happy then sad today argh.
Sometimes, people tell me things that remind me that I shouldn't think I'm the most miserable person on earth, though sometimes I honestly feel that way. Like yesterday, I had an sms conversation with my cousin Christian and after that I felt so sad. :( I wish I could make things right for all the people around me whom I love but I CAN'T. And that frustrates me sometimes even though I know that manymany things are beyond my control. Talking to people about their problems takes me out of my own depression and makes me look at things from another perspective, even if this change in perception is only temporary.
Sigh I wonder how God must feel when everyone who does pray for Him to help them sometimes feel that He didn't listen, that their prayers have been unanswered. It must be a tough job trying to make things right for everyone needs help.
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